I hate boys!!!! I hate the way they make you feel... the way they kiss... the way they look at you! I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM!!!!

and yet... I need them.... I wish I had a boyfriend... someone to hold... to kiss... to love... I wish I had someone who made me feel happy... make my days a little more pleasurable... maybe then I wouldn't feel so alone...

I  want a guy I can love and trust.... I know everyone tells me I should wait... but I want this guy now! Not to spend the rest of my life with... I mean we can... but more so just to be with me... and I also have to love him in return.... well... not really "Love" just care for...

I wish I had someone who cares for me as much as I care for them... and love me and respect me.... that's all I want.... and no one will try....

not a single guy I like would take a chance with me.... why not? I wish we all weren't so afraid.... afraid of rejection... afraid to love... I wish we all could just be ourselves.... and enjoy life... not cry like I do almost every night.....

I want to be accepted.... apart of something.... and so far... I haven't found that place... and as for now... that place will remain empty...